You know what? I think it’s highly irritating for people who appear online on MSN and then not answer you. If you’re busy, just change your status! It’s as simple as that- clicking your underused mouse. And even so, if you’re too busy to even answer anyone, why come online in the first place. Go complete your long overdue work before coming online. It’s irresposible to give people the wrong idea that you are ready to chat. Jerk.
October 31, 2005
October 18, 2005
Twist?
Plagued by atrocities of the stressful, cruel and sometimes hurting challenges of the world, a younger teenager, Leo, aged sixteen and 10 months runs to the warm embrace of his confidant.
Always willing to listen; never shunning from his woes, his confidant is strong, resilient and trust-worthy. Never does he want to know what is told, it gives the insecure teenager a sense of purpose and security. His confidant is cool and widely popular. Leo spills his woes to his new found love almost everyday. His confidant is both fast to react and quick to correct. Direct advice or instruction is never given, rather Leo is forced to ponder, reflect and analyse over what he has lamented. To his surprise, Leo finds enlightenment in his own power, not needing to consult anyone else but his own heart, body and mind.
Perplexed yet strangely satisfied by his therapeutic session tonight, Leo disconnects and shuts off his computer.
October 16, 2005
V S
As I gaze into the semi-illuminated space of the living room, a sense of loneliness grips me. Darkness coupled with the chilling wind blowing in from the windows makes me feel even more isolated. As I sit on the soft velvet chair, I try to rekindle the memories that have long left me in my four short years in VS.
Trying desperately as I am, I know that it is close to impossible to amend the mistakes that I have so obliviously committed. The mistakes which are most difficult to make-up for are those against the feelings of others. Thinking of the various scenarios my life would have been played out only if I had done what I have done differently. Maybe, just maybe, if I had been more tolerant of his actions. Or, if I had learnt to better control my emotions, I would not be in this state.
Reflection. Life. Apologies. Hope.
I have found the paradox that if I love until it hurts, then there is no hurt, but only more love.
–Mother Teresa
This is entry is dedicated to anyone whom I may have offended during my stay in VS.
October 5, 2005
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My Prelims results are out. I just want to brought back into time. Close my eyes and do it all again. Take me back to time gone by. Wish that its more than just a memory; take me back to more than yesterday, to the day before. Im in a state of distress. The diaboliacal events around are unfolding at the speed of light while I’m only travelling at the speed of sound. I need to keep up with the rest of the world. Confusion. Hopelessness. Cold.
These are some things that are troubling me. I have no more energy to orgainse them under any specific heading or order. Read them!
- Social life is really hard to handle.
- Academic life is exciting, stressful and somewhat linked to social life.
- Leisure time that doesnt have anything to do with maintaining political friendship.
In reference to part 3 of my troubles, I think its the most vexing part of a teenagers life. On one hand, you feel great socialising with friends, on the other, it seems all so planned out. It’s as if every sentence, joke or sarcastic remark has a twisted and hidden agenda meant to increase your social standing. It’s disgusting. Even among good friends, every phone call or chatting opportunity seems to be riddled with hidden tones and purposes. I finally understand the importance of Social Studies.
