mama mia!

oh yes, now that the effects of alcohol have worn off, The Prince shall now present what everyone expects of him to do post on his blog after an event like Graduation Night.

on the evening of the big night itself, I was so fortunate to have 3 helpers helping me to get dressed. they are my mum, the maid, and my aunt who just came over after her acupuncture. i had 3 people running up and down, helping me get that, iron this, call that. and i was supposed 2 be graduating that day! hahah. anyways, it was great help. i would have been terribly late if not for their help.

i called a cab. ran overtime. didn’t pick lovelle up on time. haha. and i was so pissed at the driver at first cos he didn’t noe how 2 go to lovelle’s house. i sat in the cab waiting for him to look at the directory while the clock ticked. actually it was my fault for being so late. anyways i got to lovelle’s house and yes, she looked really nice. sorry u didn’t bring ure IC. hahaha sorry i didn’t remind u! ehhh, but not my fault hor! YA LA IN the end u still got to enjoy ure time at St James while i was at the god foresaken DXO…..

yes we have arrived!!! glorious orchard road.

inspirational shot by fabian!

this gurl… hahaha … super pro!

GRRR!

Qazzzzzzzzz and me!

oh yes!

do u see what i see?

thoughts on graduation

these are some of rawest emotions and thoughts on graduation.

it is only upon graduation that one understands the meaning of independence. upon graduation, i have come to realise that we are now on our own. at least i feel i am. i know i still have my family for support, no doubt about that- what i mean is, friends seems so superficial and worthless. (some friends at least). well after graduation i suddenly feel the distance that i have between my very own classmates whom i thought were my best buds. well i thought i am well loved. actually i do think that i am not hated. but today, something struck me when i was with my friends : although i am not hated, i am also not much loved. people don’t mind me around. they enjoy the occasional joke i crack. they enjoy my cranky psycho-analysis. or the weird gibberish i sometimes mutter when things seem cold or just plain odd. but today i’ve seen that i’m indispensable. to be more specific, what i mean in this context is that, whether i do all those stuff above, my absence will make only an insignificant impact. they can get along fine, have almost just as much fun without the almighty fabian ong. SURE it’d be cool if fabian hung around to guard the bags. sure it’d be nice for cute fabian in his cute outfit to be seen with a bunch of guys and girls. sure it’d be nice if fabian was here to split the bill, but the fact of the matter is, if fabian wasn’t here, it probably wouldn’t matter.

a sense of isolation gripped me at the post prom party. the moment i left the hotel, i thought i made the right choice. i wanted to go to DXO for the CJ post prom party. I WANTED. and i went. but the moment i stood in the cab line with them, i knew i was in for something unpleasant that night. and in the dxo was where i realised and got to experience the above paragraph. i realised that its not that people are selfish or that they can’t give more thought for you, it’s just that, they are contented with taking care of themselves, and as long their actions don’t directly harm you, they’ll carry on.

Now i’ve realised that sometimes, actually most of the times, I should do what makes me happy. so when people ask me: do i wanna do this or that and why? my reply would be yes/no because

I LIKE LOR!

what i currently feel is that, doing what makes u feel happy at the present moment, will most likely feel happy after the act. regret is less likely to bug you even if you have sinned because you know that ure heart, mind and body all acted in unison when you did what u did. only by making one’s self happy can he/she make others happy. so the next time you see fabian not feeling happy, it’s not really bcos he’s not happy himself, maybe it’s because he feels happier making others happy at his own expense? is fabian silly or “ACTING” noble? fabian is merely trying to make himself happy. =D

i feel so much better now…

faker(s)

hmm… all seems quiet tonight! not. haha the weather is hot. no wind. i think it’s a sign of eminent rain. oh wells, everyone seems quiet. are they slacking?!

i think not… all are secretly preparing for grad. nite. fakers. haha fockers. 

haha i saw this bottle in a coffee shop somewhere near my econs tuition place. i was searching for the soap when i saw this. i laughed my Ba**s off! no lah. still intact. MUAhaha.

lookie this

it’s fried yam. u noe the dim sum dish. heh. my bro earn money then he treat us to dim sum at the cathay!! so cool kewl rite? yah so to those underage party goers, if u read this blog, lemme noe if u wanna get tix

haha alrite… i confess i have been shopping. seen so many ppl arnd. cj PEOPLE aka fakers. see! this is the place which im garnering more people to boycott. added terence to the HATE VIVO

 

 list already. oh yah RIVER ISLAND IS DISPICABLE. one of their RA -retail assistant was so rude, he reminded me of donkeys fronicating in vivo …speaking of blacklists….here’s a picture that is sure to resonate with vernon.

hahaha.

ZARA rocks my socks, shoes and underwear!! to that PERSON. hahah =D

i wanna take this opportunity to thank my mummy, auntie doreen and terence for shopping with me! and yah the zara person at taka! wahaha!

oh oh oh

woke up today, feeling the way i always do.

haha i woke up at 11 40. do i feel the way i always do? in some ways yes? others no. cos the weather today is exceptionally nice. so cooling. and yes my bed was so cool. get the tinglinging sensation when i rub the untouched portions of my bed and pillows. hmmm.. so nice. anyways, i let my alarm clock snooze for an hour plus, before deciding to get up and turn it off at around 10. after that, i went back to sleep. hahaha don’t u think im incredible! and yes i feel the way i always do cos, haha there is usually this thought that somewhat creeps into my mind whenever i wake up on days when im not stressed. okay fine im always stressed. but during those fleeting minutes when i wake up, i usually dont think about too many things cept that.. haha nvr mind.

anyways, hahaha nowadays when i blog, i feel very restricted. loads of things i wanna say but i fear backlash. so most of the time i will talk to my stuffed toys for advice… sighx, the cons of the internet- lack of privacy.

araz

hmm i just came back from a whole day out. lunch was great, brendon gave us a wonderful treat at the cathay restaurant. thanks. and then i went to do alot of things before looking around for clothes.

BEST (so far), heh, i wont tell u. cos i dont want.. hahaha don tell u reason also. anyways, YES super good service. yah named himself ZAC! hm. actually his real name is andy… awww…yah bye.

bottom of the pack

i feel as though i’m caught in the middle of two worlds. two worlds not usually known to mix well. on one hand i really want to be in this circle, on the other, i feel myself being ever so attracted to the other. and because i’m not a 100% committed to one, i feel as though i’m at the bottom of the pack. this kind of feeling sucks.

oh well, put off your false pretenses, yesterday, me saw so many things while i was by myself. was it just me being sour grapes or overly sensitive? how can so many people live like that? i mean, don’t they feel the leastbit insecure to be parading around their you know whats in a place like that. gosh. aren’t they inviting mayhem?

well maybe its just bcos i suck.

keep bleeding love

have u ever felt like what my title says? i’m listening to an awesome song on the radio which i have no clue what the title is. this is just part of the chorus. some female vocalist. she’s good. i hope the neighbours dont knock on the door becos of the volume.

yes i wanna say that the As are over. and i just had one of my fantastic ritual showers.. i feel very good now. yes im so happy now. cos i wasnt feeling very good b4 the shower. today i wanna dedicate my entry to the tiny red hot chilli padi also known as the

Bird’s Eye Chili Pepper

yes i love it. these peppers/chilli are simply a staple for me. i think it is the most important fruit/vegetable in the world. it is packed full of vitamins, stunningly beautiful to look at, it is also scrumptious. just a few slithers of the red hot chilli and its seeds into a bowl of instant noodles can make my day turn upside down (in a good way of course). haha, yes it used to be free, mum always gets it free from the market, bargain with the vegetable seller. nowadays my maid has to buy it by the packets from NTUC. but u noe what i noticed about the chilli padi, it now tastes the same. i mean yes, it still is super spicy, but its sharpness peaks at around the same place in my palate. i mean i used to experience a whole multitude of sensations whenever i bit into the humble chilli padi, but now its just a sharp, and powerful hotness. (mayb i was just too imaginative when i was younger) .BUT I STILL LOVE IT. cant live without it.

and yes i can live without you perverts. have fun! go and die, i will stuff a whole tree of chilli padi up ur urethra and anus at the same time!

red hot chilli padi hot hot. i love you!

hey u lag

A LEVELS are over.

spin CPI

im feeling dizzy now cos i just spun myself while sitting on the swivel chair. after spinning in one direction, i decided to spin in the other direction while listening to the other half of the song, apologise by one republic and timbaland. hahaha.

i thought about this while in the shower:

u are not the sun and we are not the planets. we do not revolve around u. do not make this place to be ur solar system. ure not even fit to be a distant star. more like a meteorite crashing into our brilliant milky way!

hahaha can this be applicable to someone we see recently? HEEZ.