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well, last week went out with the army ppl. and calvin left me his ipod. hahaha. i have been enjoying his playlist. seriously, he’s so good at selecting songs that i would have no qualms to pay to be my personal song selctor. hahaha.

beh was saying, “i don want take… i don want take.. ” and posing at the same time. look at his lips…

we had dinner. the jarrod came! he had rocking hot shoes. too bad i didnt take a photo of them.

 

then we went to kino. calvin and i went to watch hardy perform outside taka.

then we went to cafe…

 oh yah this reminds me… richard went to orchard road without bringing his wallet! incredible. and ME have 2 pay his bills lah… but he say he wiLL return me! hahaha still waiting…..

 

i have no idea why… i only have pics of me with jarrod! LOL!

find out where we went!! WAHahahahA!

 

im not red. im not drunk. i didnt drink. thanks to calvin! lol!

did god curse sbs 58 or me?

so i just go back from the gym. im sweaty. tired. and very angry.

IT’S BAD enough that i had to wait for 15 minutes for the bus on the way to the gym. okay nvrmind. i forgive sbs. cos rush hour traffic. after the workout. i was feeling better. happy in fact. so i patiently waited for the god forsaken 58 to take me home. 58 is like some bloody imperial olympic torch bearing horse carriage. comes once in every 4 years… anyways, so i waited for the bus for another good 15 minutes … and guess what, i stood up, and flagged, the STUPID woman driver look at me point behind and sped past me! i was like WTF… the other guy who was also waiting for the same damn “carraige” look at me. then he ran off to another bus stop to take another bus.  i felt like an idiot. standing there. so i plugged in CALVIN’s ipod. listened to anastacia’s <to be left outside alone> and walked down the road to find another bus stop where there may be more buses. cos i thought that it would be STUPID to wait another 15 minutes rite…

so actualli, i was really happy, i was actually skipping down the pavement cos i love that song. gave me hope. i was asking god for something. not to leave me alone… all outside alone… yah all my life ive been waiting for him to bring a fairy tale my way…i don feel safe. GO listen to the song.. u will understand. and i think he wanted me to be punished cos, i dunno why, i asked for a sin? did i? TWO 58 ZOOMED PAST ME within a matter of 3 minutes. i was like.. LOST. cos by the time i walked to the other bus stop, there were no other buses to take me home. so it was either i walk back. or walk all the way home. i was so angry. i was blaming god. i feel so angry. i dunno what’s wrong. anyways, i took a cab. i had no cash. i told god i wanna pay by nets. and i told him, if he considered what i asked for to be a sin, then the machine will breakdown. and U NOE WHAT… the uncle swiped by card. and it malfunctioned ! for a while, but finally, it came true. 

i guess, fairy tales will come true? i wanna noe more…. anger dissipating. hunger setting in. fatigue overriding system. cya…

rush of everything

trust me guys, it’s not that i dont like to blog, it’s just that i have so manythings going on in my life that i can’t seem the time to blog.

look at the new things i just bought! hahaha i had an awesome day today… stupid remedial training on sundays. when i got out. the fury in me got unleashed. and whoaho! bang bang BOOM.  i even had the patience to accompany my mum to pick out 2 pairs of shoes. hahaha. of course i cam whored along the way. check out the background. haha the face of serenity amongst the chaos.

finance department. i need help! i went to cell grp this week. ahh…. church…. and the nice people. melts my heart… to those who read my blog: may u have a blessed week.

shut up took this photo. and im still thinking about the thing. yes btw to fren: this is proof… hahaha.

once again, fabian starts complaining about the weather. yes it’s really hot. the only reason why i even have the patience to blog is because i just came out from the shower half an hour ago and i have the fan blowing directly at me. haha.

i know that this is long overdue but …

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IAN AND VERNON!

haha. waiting for the lift…

 

hilarious shots!

 

look at the HUGE CAKE! aww happie brday ian.

 

aww grp of frens… and i get pushed into the background. SOMETIMES i dont need to be the star of the photo… just sometimes…

 

 

MUMMY!

 

small. medium. large. eyes.

 

BEST FRIENDS FOR LIFE!

 

boing at mos…pure… shit

 though i don have pics of V’s dinner at Fish and Co. with jonathan… the laughs we had was really nice. it was really enjoyable!

guys ure 18 and 19 now!

do u got a first aid kit handy?

damaged. so am i going to fix it? how am i going to fix it? so i’m asking you, do u have a first aid kit handy? i need this puzzle put together again. i thought that i should let you know that i’m damaging myself every week… seriously, i have no idea what to do now? im freaking sad… i’m lost. why am i always worrying about it? EMO.

 

can u see what’s attacking me?

 

hmm. shut up.

 

 

scary.

 

 

 

please

the smell of rain rushes into the bay,

as i look out my window, i pray for a brand new day. what is it that i seek? i need sleep i need sleep. i need sleep for a sense of relief. give me just a little reprieve.

take my stress away won’t u please.

we can move to the tropics

yes, i know this is a really hard time of our lives. to all the 19 year olds. to all those doing thiNS with me now. to all my friends out there. we must all pull through okay? never do stupid things to ourselves. never let such nonsense wreck havoc in our lives. musn’t let the system topple us. okay?

to SJ, gosh, i know what ure going through. i know uve havent told me the details and i know u have held back some info but yah, i know u can do it. dont let what ure superiors say affect u. i know they are terrible to u sometimes but they are merely human. without the uniform. standing naked, they’d probably be more insecure than u. so be proud that as a rankless fellow, u’re able to withstand their crap.

To wenz, i noe u rock. i noe u joke. ure method of destress. but others don understand. they prefer 2 see us in pain. or seem to be in pain. just be yourself. don let them ruin ure mood. don let them ruin ure future.

to cal, i also catch no ball abt engine! lol! keep positive juices flowing man!

to all my other bebots, aka xue and all. jia you. strut on! thankfully u guys are problem-less as of now.

 not forgettin the working peeps. vern. hm good good. and the mugging studs. ter and xj. and to friend. don lose hope. yah and aunties from college. auntie on!! ALL THE PEOPLE IN THE WORLD LETS HOLD HANDS AND DANCE FEEDBACK BY JANET JACKSON! THAT’S WHAT I CALL DISCIPLINE! TAKE IT HIGHER!

 the decisive force. dont let it decide a lousy or inexistent future for u, but rather, decide to let the it do u good. be it in singapore or elsewhere in the “tropics”. try.

you know god can take you, surely he can take u there. yes we can go to the tropics, yes we can move to the slums, HE can take ya… HE can take ya there! anywhere. believe in him he will bring you there!i was really low low low low just now. but am better thanks to music. it connects me to the greater good. the greater being!

we need more than a friend

i want more than a friend.

we all need friends. especially if you come from a small family. or if u have a brother who isnt really nice to you. i have so little people to talk to. and those that im close to, im afraid that if i talk 2 much, they will run away. so what do i do. i talk 2 my own freaking brain. and i think it’s stressing my brain cells out.

but the thing is, am i seeking a friend or more than that. why do i always have 2 ask myself this. i have friends right? but why am i discontented? what on earth am i seraching for? why do i always feel sad. am i just being an lazy ass, afraid of doing things on my own. i really need answers. readers out there… enlighten me. show me the path! where are you? do i need more friends or do i need a friendlyierererer friendly friend?

i think i wanna be part of something special. something unique. something which only i can have and no one else can have… do i have to pay a premium to get it? im paying a really high premium just sourcing and waiting for it. will the premium ever be paid in full. or will i be paying like a dumb ass till god knows when… sometimes, when one gets bored of such premium paying, they go and look for secondary or supplementary packages. seems easy and satisfying to get. payment is cheap. gratification is almost instant. but did u read the fine print. there are repurcussions to some who are investing in a full high premium inusrance package. what about unknown side effects?

 IM GOING TO BURST OUT in tears if i continue watchin samsoon.

yoga oeti

today we had the usual fitness run. after the run, we had the most unusual cool down exercise. hahaha. u will laugh when u read this.

we were told to sit down. and cross our legs. haha.. then they asked us to close our eyes. and place our hands on top our laps. hahaha. we were doing yoga. i was trying to control my laughter. i was bursting inside. when the instructor said” feel the relaxation start from the tips of your hair… going down to ure forehead and ears and lips… ” i was like BUAHAHAHAHAHA… almost burst out in full blown shrieking laughter.

can u imagine… a bucnh of guys doing YOGA.. but .. i think that many guys actually wanna learn it. and kinda like it i think. cos i sorta peeked when everyone’s eyes were supposed 2 b closed. and i noticed that the most muscular sporty guys were actually concentrating really hard to do it right. backs straight and eyes fully closed… hahaha so interesting.. anyways… everytime the instructor gave a new description of how to relax.. i will have 2 purse my lips and squint my eyes to control my laughter. hahaha. can u imagine… lol ” now imagine ureself relaxing… ure bodies healing after the run. ure body repairng itself. ure blood is running through ure veins.. u are healthy.” BUAHAHAHAha.

and yah… after the exercise, i was expecting there to be lots of ridcule, but i didn’t hear a single sarcastic comment. no one seemed to wanna mock the exercise at all. lol… welll, i guess guys are really more shy than girls when it comes to admitting that they like certain things, are they? heh.. haha