a straight back

sitting upright, one can gaze into the night sky. from the thirteenth floor of this apartment, i see the lights of the stadium. behind it lie rows of  flats.

can one ever see beyond his horizon. even when you think you feel something, you never know what lies beyong what the naked eye can see. seeing is believeing, feeling is another. a calm heart allows one to see while a passionate one makes us feel. only when these two hearts of two different persons beat as one, can then true love be felt, seen and last.

when words hurt

Your words are abrasive though
you claim to be speaking to the point.

Gone are the times when
advice are meant nothing 
but for good intent

Now, your direct ways pierce right
through the flesh and into the soul.

Bluntness can’t be an excuse for
your abrasiveness.

sunday morning the rain is falling

it’s morning sunday morning and the rain is falling. haha jason marez.

ian gave me this piece of advice, “Do not worry, even if you do not feel youthful in that place of party, there will always be somewhere else that will allow to do feel youthful and loved. for all you know, your house may just be it.”.

good looking boys

thursday. april 2009. the date, i do not know. a task i have after camp to accomplish bugs me. first to popular then to sistic then to a home. a house. i come home. sleep and awake friday awaits. i run i laugh and i come running home. i think i shall work out that day. and rest till kumar makes his say. then sunday will come and family returns. the drama and stress of the crowded dirt. monday restarts and i feel no drama. alone and serene a predictable life of a boy watching drama.

degree suitability poll

I need some advice, Just for the heck of it, do it for me?

im tired, but..

I’m so tired right now. but i’m ready to japordise everything and run and run and run and run…

surviving on four hours of sleep. i couldn’t fall asleep cos i got overly excited over my new web cam.

here are some pics

hello! my first webbie cam snapshot!

 

hey hey! snap shot number 2!

 

 

cute? ppl like me in my glasses? it's a white lie right?

 

 

 

-8 +5 UK to NZ. stuck in Singapore

 

 

a face mask was in order today!! chaba!

 

check out my belated bday pressie from richard and calvin. touched.

im a person who doesn’t like to be ignored. sometimes my mum thinks im selfish for doing what i do. sometimes i think it makes sense.

 

talks to friend who never initiates convos.  says hi.  replies. why so long never chat? gives multi tasking as an answer.  not worthy enough a task?

 gets angry imaptient and after a heated exchange of words, mostly a one sided exchange. blocks and deletes contact.

 

fucking pathetic.

passed test

i passed my auxillary staff assistant test! yay. hoorah.

but fatty had to spoil it. stupid pig so kiasu. he went to cpt A and asked for promotion. guess he wanted to prevent me from being 2 ranks higher than him.

lard

-___________-

judge my smile

smile no. 1

smile no. 2

smile no. 3. this gal is uber cool. she is like sunshine at night. feeling down after clubbing? talk 2 her and u will be happy!

smile no. 4

 

behind my smile hides the pain.

say it clear

the incessant chatter. the constant buzz. why do they bother? 

the hush that i need comes when im angry. why do they bother to buzz?

are they too free or are they flaunting their securities. im definitely not going to be their aunt agony.

 

why do they even bother to talk to us.  

choose a topic and chat on, why dont they state their purpose clear. for it is not my fault that i can’t read their status. it is not my fault that i should fall. go away chatter. go away buzz.

exercise amendment

im glad to be home. i will be embarking on a new experience tomorrow. i hope that it’d be pleasant.  although i refuse to believe it, i sometimes think that i feel happier in camp. think it’s cos i have things to do in camp. it keeps my  mind busy. at least contemplating death in camp seems much rosier than looking at a list of msn contacts who refuse to initiate a conversation with you. or worse, say hi and completely ignores you.

THROW AWAY THE COMPUTER LAH