keep me safe. thank you.

praise the lord. thank god. i praise you for keeping me safe and allowing it to come through. thank you. 

a breath of fresh air. never stop believing. calmness within. excitement on the extreme.

a cry

a night i will remember. i cried so hard it hurts. i cired so hurt my heart hurts. i cried so hard my head hurts.

my eyes still burn in hurt. the cry triggered an onslaught of emotions. issues that u may never understand.

sorry.

silent prayer

u answered my prayer today.

gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight, hold my hand real tight and take my troubles away.

resolution 7th October 2008

Dear Lord, 

Fabian prays,

It’s time to stop being so impulsive.

It’s time to reign in your emotions, take control of your life.

Your health- your mental health and physical state of well being. Do not bring anymore bodily harm or paranoia of potential ********** ******** to yourself anymore.

No more euphemisms to cover up your indiscretions.

 

Today the 7th of October you shall stop :-

1) X

2) X

3) X

4) X

You have to pray that the Lord will keep you safe and well

In all these I pray

Amen

 

May I read the full letter on the 7th of December 2008.  Pleased.

 

 

only you.

for your love is higher than the mountains,

deeper than the sea, all i want is you in my life.

no one else can satsify my soul, make me feel this way, only you god, only you.

for your love….

rush of everything

trust me guys, it’s not that i dont like to blog, it’s just that i have so manythings going on in my life that i can’t seem the time to blog.

look at the new things i just bought! hahaha i had an awesome day today… stupid remedial training on sundays. when i got out. the fury in me got unleashed. and whoaho! bang bang BOOM.  i even had the patience to accompany my mum to pick out 2 pairs of shoes. hahaha. of course i cam whored along the way. check out the background. haha the face of serenity amongst the chaos.

finance department. i need help! i went to cell grp this week. ahh…. church…. and the nice people. melts my heart… to those who read my blog: may u have a blessed week.

we can move to the tropics

yes, i know this is a really hard time of our lives. to all the 19 year olds. to all those doing thiNS with me now. to all my friends out there. we must all pull through okay? never do stupid things to ourselves. never let such nonsense wreck havoc in our lives. musn’t let the system topple us. okay?

to SJ, gosh, i know what ure going through. i know uve havent told me the details and i know u have held back some info but yah, i know u can do it. dont let what ure superiors say affect u. i know they are terrible to u sometimes but they are merely human. without the uniform. standing naked, they’d probably be more insecure than u. so be proud that as a rankless fellow, u’re able to withstand their crap.

To wenz, i noe u rock. i noe u joke. ure method of destress. but others don understand. they prefer 2 see us in pain. or seem to be in pain. just be yourself. don let them ruin ure mood. don let them ruin ure future.

to cal, i also catch no ball abt engine! lol! keep positive juices flowing man!

to all my other bebots, aka xue and all. jia you. strut on! thankfully u guys are problem-less as of now.

 not forgettin the working peeps. vern. hm good good. and the mugging studs. ter and xj. and to friend. don lose hope. yah and aunties from college. auntie on!! ALL THE PEOPLE IN THE WORLD LETS HOLD HANDS AND DANCE FEEDBACK BY JANET JACKSON! THAT’S WHAT I CALL DISCIPLINE! TAKE IT HIGHER!

 the decisive force. dont let it decide a lousy or inexistent future for u, but rather, decide to let the it do u good. be it in singapore or elsewhere in the “tropics”. try.

you know god can take you, surely he can take u there. yes we can go to the tropics, yes we can move to the slums, HE can take ya… HE can take ya there! anywhere. believe in him he will bring you there!i was really low low low low just now. but am better thanks to music. it connects me to the greater good. the greater being!

random

i found my certificate. finally. urghz ! yes. thank god! and do u noe where i found it? actually my mum found it by accident. she said it dropped out from a gigantic A3 size file of hers while she was getting her materials ready for her meetin tomolow. AWESOME!!! i ransacked my room for 2 hours for nothing cept for excessive dust inhalation…

we need good health. i want good health. i want less stress. army the decisive force. fabian needs to rest.

Egypt culminates

Happy new year everyone. To celebrate the new year, i shall post the last of the photos of my Egypt trip and post a couple of pics of last night’s New Year’s Eve party.

the step pyramid. the first ever built! as the first pyramids are built, fabian already knows that all this will happen, how can he stop the problems. fabian wants this….

i think this is a really nice picture. hahaha. nope it’s not forest fire.

this is a castle built on the coast of Alexandria. Behind it is the Mediterranean Sea.

my mum was really intrigued by the waves crashing on the castle’s wall! haha!

i finally get to see my facial expression when i have many thoughts in my mind but dont wanna say them out loud. HAHAHa.

yum? hahaha!

hahaha so big hor? OOi don look under the skirt la! PERVERT!

my brother, cousin and his friend. going off to some party that they’re organising. haha!

so yah, yesterday to usher in new year, we went to a club at Tanjong Pagar. YES A club with my family. Family gathering, it was next to Amara Hotel? yah after that i asked cousins whether wan go that club in tanjong pagar with me. they say don wan. so i ownself go lor. i one person. wah super high. needed someone to lean on. lucky can control myself. if not………….. wahahaha…. hahaha bumped into kelvin. made new frens. found new places. =D happiness and steadfast we aim to be………………….

YAy! happy that i have a cousin who is 2 yeard OLDER THAN ME! hahahahaha!

i like this pic… don’t you think i will make a good boyfriend? how come i’m still single?!

but i really like this pic…. HAHAHAHA!

happy NEW YEAR!

may the new year be as happy as can be. may the lord grant us happiness. leave all ure worries behind. throw away all negative thoughts. “act as thoughu have already received”-the secret!

vs-CJC 2t08

so CJC class of 2006 graduated on Friday 5 October. praise the lord!

If you want to see all the MANY MANY MANY pictures that my classmates have taken you can link to AMY then to QAZZ. yes I shall post pictures that they haven’t posted.

Speaking of uploading pictures, my wordpress account has reached its limit. hahaha the above picture is the last one that wordpress allowed. So now I’m making use of photobucket. I don’t dare to count the number of pictures I have in my computer. Can’t bear to delete any of them. I somehow have the feeling that one day, the internet and computer world will just crash due to information overload…

I have so many things to blog about. First of all, the weather is just killing. as in seriously, it’s so uncomfortable it just cuts productivity in half. yes, and i have one fan blowing directly at me and i still feel hot and slimy. i have already showered 2 times today.

and secondly, I just wanna tell you all that my blog readership has steadily been increasing. averaging around 60 views a day. haha. not much but yes… hahaha i feel happy. so thanks to friends for reading. and to those prying eyes … hahahaa well just read… i cant be too bothered. just dont be jealous of my life. HAHAA… cos u noe what, according to wordpress dashboard, someone googled “derrick soh” and came 2 my blog. YIKES. hahaha.

check this out

no this is not my boyfriend

HAHAHA JOKE RIGHT! from our very own CJC library. i snapped these photos before the librarian came to chase me away from the counter! hahaha. and he looks so suspicious in the photo!

and yes now im using internet explorer (which i really hate) to blog cos mozilla cant seem to configure the photobucket files onto my post. I’ll find a way to resolve this problem. can’t take another day not posting these photos.

carrie. ure still a dear. cheer up k. {IJ girl no. 1}

yes i take nice photos with IJ gurls. hahaha. crystal. my long lost PW grp member.

yes we went to “study” at national library. we tried sneaking into the reference sections but there were guards at every floor. damn hahaha. so we went to read novels. haha.

yes. studying… hahahaha.

peeka-boo-BOOH!

and yes AMY, so that u dont get jealous…

but hahaha. i enjoyed my day at the library. lol!