are you gay?

In my view,

Being gay is not a subset of liking another guy. however,  liking another guy is a proper subset of being gay.

If (you) were a boy:

it takes more than liking guys to be gay.

Everyone can wear pink. Even those who are hetrosexual. (or so they claim to be; even citing marraige and kids as evidence).

Yellow signifies royalty in some cultures and wealth in others. Those spotting yellow think they have it all. They are happy or seem to be very secure with themselves. Their security translates to arrogance and obnoxiousness to others, especially to those who wear sky blue. Yellow tends to be very prominent in specialised online friend making prolific websites.

Sky blue- on the edges of royalty. So near yet so far. Misunderstood. To the general grey population, sky blue appears to be yellow. To the pink imperialists, sky blue will always be blue. Pariahs.

What’s your colour?

a cry

a night i will remember. i cried so hard it hurts. i cired so hurt my heart hurts. i cried so hard my head hurts.

my eyes still burn in hurt. the cry triggered an onslaught of emotions. issues that u may never understand.

sorry.

comfort zone

the weather is really hot. i feel really uncomfortable, and it’s not because of the weather. many things have been bugging as of late. i’ve realised that i am slowly but surely losing my command for the english language.

just check out this blog post on the 11th of july by richard… i can’t remember the last time i’ve written anything close to this standard… wenzzz.blogspot.com

and on to another random topic, i can’t make decisions without asking less than 10 people for their opinions. and everytime i go about my ’survey’, it will always involve my mum. she is getting really irritated. and she is pissed off. “it’s time u made your own decisions…”

I NEED TO TAKE CONTROL OF MY LIFE.

btw thanks to the recent comments. To the passerby: if you;re really a random passer-by, my heart goes out to you. the reason i continue blogging is bcos i hope my entries will be able to reach people who arent in my immediate circle of friends.

to yan, hahaha why don u ask SJ ureself? he seems fine now though i know that he has been through a rough patch. he’s strong, sure he’ll get thru NS =) u go girl! i’ll be visiting ure school real soon! allianz de francoise!

>.<

dreamy reality. oui.

intense. new. weird. exciting.

i was really out of my league. i wanted to leave. but thank god for oui. hahaha. it was hillarious. i was like a scarecrow in a dance troupe.

st james. Saturday. not my cup of tea. usually. cos I’m 19? lol someone said i was 18 ! yay. guys think im 20 urghs. anyways, failure 1 = attempt 2 = success.

hahaa the music was quite nice. I’m so sorry. sorry for not dancing to my best that i usually dane. i would have given u guys a show. but I’m shy amongst ppl. i know. esp. if there are cute ppl. within the group. hahaha. i have 2 be so super thankful for oui – the joker who really brightened up the nite.

i mean, im really down today cos of SOME stupid jerk, cancelled 2wice. anyways, now all i have to do to get thru the week is think of movida and that pair of smooth and soft hands. HAHAHAA. can u believe it? oui’s hands were softer than mine. hahaha i still can’t believe oui handled me that way when oui said “wo rang ni HIGH ba! ” sets ppl. thinking. hahaha i cant dance salsa or latin for nuts.

CUTE. expensive. really expensive nite out. but memorable. id say worth it. something i really dream of. haha. sorta like a dream come true? well, i mean this is something that not many ppl like me would envision as fun. BUT I HAD FUN! oui oui oui!                             

 

 

Jumping orgASmic Orgy of Nice songs

u all noe i’ve gotta migrate. as soon as we talKed thru the door. let’s move it back to my place. Argh. yes.

ALL OF US LET’S MIGRATE.  THIS IS WHERE IT BEGINS MAN!

yes mariah is one who is so giving me an orgasm man. i mean, im no big fan of hers cos of her lousy diva attitude, but yes her album, e= mc square is so good.

yes first impressions do count, so when i hear/feel a good sound/presence about something, yes u noe i will like it. and u noe what i do about things that i like… I will have it. YES IM SO HAVING MARIAH! rong ern told me that though ppl have advised him otherwise, who ever listens to advice?

mariah says did u: touch her body? wrestle her on the floor. let me rub your thighs… give me what i deserve. and somewhere in leona’s songs, she says:

 take a bow cos uve taken everything else, u played the part and u played….u played it too well… all u gave me was pretend. >>>> take it away but they can never have yesterday.

i deserve to smile. (:   =)    =D 

 bcos

wing SM did a random spot check on us today. we were told to declare our phones. he asked me what phone i was carrying. and i said philips. he said i have the most beautiful phone in the whole army. HAHAHA. so sweet.

believe: u have. don believe in u.  believe in i. i say i will. get thee.  RE: u will never know.

* every word i post means something *  every letter.

happy mothers’ day

today is mothers’ day in singapore. happy mothers’ day mom. but i realised that the more u try to make a day seem extra special to someone, the more awkward it will be and less special. so just be yourself. oh yah and i learnt the meaning of tolerance. i learnt how 2 use it instead of walking out of the car, slamming the door and scolding vulgarities (out loud that is). yes it has resulted in me having a throbbing headache. 

on a separate note, if ure reading this, hi jason koh from starhub. u owe me those virtual things i gave u (: 

 

 

xue hu and i killing time at the starhub shop. i was finding fault with my phone so we sat at the customer service centre for 10 minutes. and i talked 2 the lady for 3 mins. and ended up with nothing cos my phone was perfectly fine. hahaha!

 

i love shopping for swimming trunks. esp. if they are cheap. lol bods sale at isetan. irrisistable. yes amy, ure “charm” has definitely rubbed off on me. thanks alot i guess. hahaha.

 

i just love to go out with these 2 bitches. hahahaha dont call me a bitch xue hu. i dont like ppl to call me that. only i get to call people that.

 

hi. shiyun and kevin. shiyun can send me pics from airport? kevin, quote subway conversation “ i wanna tell you something, i dont have a crush on you, but i think you’re cute.” muahahahahahahhahahaa. i love ure expression. the blur/blank face then u shake it off. wahahahaha! but seriously, i dont have any feelings for u kevin. you’re a guy.

*laughs*

we need more than a friend

i want more than a friend.

we all need friends. especially if you come from a small family. or if u have a brother who isnt really nice to you. i have so little people to talk to. and those that im close to, im afraid that if i talk 2 much, they will run away. so what do i do. i talk 2 my own freaking brain. and i think it’s stressing my brain cells out.

but the thing is, am i seeking a friend or more than that. why do i always have 2 ask myself this. i have friends right? but why am i discontented? what on earth am i seraching for? why do i always feel sad. am i just being an lazy ass, afraid of doing things on my own. i really need answers. readers out there… enlighten me. show me the path! where are you? do i need more friends or do i need a friendlyierererer friendly friend?

i think i wanna be part of something special. something unique. something which only i can have and no one else can have… do i have to pay a premium to get it? im paying a really high premium just sourcing and waiting for it. will the premium ever be paid in full. or will i be paying like a dumb ass till god knows when… sometimes, when one gets bored of such premium paying, they go and look for secondary or supplementary packages. seems easy and satisfying to get. payment is cheap. gratification is almost instant. but did u read the fine print. there are repurcussions to some who are investing in a full high premium inusrance package. what about unknown side effects?

 IM GOING TO BURST OUT in tears if i continue watchin samsoon.

hey top and bottom

wondering what Fabian has been up to?

went to outram park to eat my fave roast duck… BUT stall closed. sadness and disappointment man… sigh… anyways after lunch family decided to go to some feng shui stall to but some things. mum and i were like idling around. hahaha.. after that went to chiong to town to meet peeps like vernon, xue and terence and jonathan. we caught meet the spartans. I had serveral strange cravings yesterday.

No. 1 : SWEET popcorn- why strange? cos fabian like SALTY food. i always go for salty and extra butter and salt… but for some strange reason i felt like eating sweet and crunchy popcorn. so i got it.

meet the spartans was really dumb. crappy and so a small extent rather idiotic and nonsensical. i found it rather cheapo, could tell that not a lot of money was spent on production. poor xue slept through it… awww xue i noe u sacrifice for me… lol i like such stupid, brainless shows.

after we chiong to paragon to shop. armani close le. ck nothing to buy. so we go club. me v and jon. V super cute la.. buy 7 up… okay then he cinderella need to go home… send him home that time his mom talk 2 me on mobile. hahaha. lucky i havent drunk yet… if not i blabber nonsense to her. hahaha. yesterday something BIG happened.

to v: do u remember that man who tried to call me out. u noe that one outside the 2nd club we tried to enter… let’s call him policeman. he used to be one i think… anyways he is seriously creepy… no he wasnt trying to arrest me. he just call me and ask me to talk 2 him. i just ignore him and pretend to talk on the phone. oMG! the stupid club refuse to give me free entry cos i neh bring my ID… i tell you he keep touching my back ask me to go to his side… i tell you… vern, jon and i Just SPRINT like the wind… hahahaha… scrary man… u shd never meet ppl like him sigh… all my fault go and noe such ppl… he send me over 10 smses since yesterday although i didnt reply to a single one of them. i just received another 1…. he thinks v and jon is my… HAHAHAHAH!

anyways, when jon is around.. i won go and dance de. cos i don wan to dance and leave him alone at the table… and also i don wan him 2 see me dancing. so i drag him 2 the dancefloor. lol we vibrated for 3 minutes then i decided to go eat something.

Craving no.2: chocolate cake. haha we almost boarded the cab to go either holland V or airport to find cake… when suddenly….

Craving no. 3 kicked in. : ROTI PRATA. hahaha either jalan kayu or thomson. so went to the 24 hour prata house at thomson. haha we ate mushroom cheese, egg and plain prata… lol i don like it lei… it doesn’t have the traditional taste… seems like they using a different kind of flour or something… hmmm not disgusting but… different.

btw… i had an army photo shoot. hahaha i didnt noe we weren’t allowed to smile. i think i will be the only smiling like a mad kid in the photo. LOL. picture serious dudes and a smiling loony. LOl btw the photo shoot was hilarious, the bench which my fren was standing on… BROKE!!!!!!!!! hahahah !crash! haahaha i laugh for 5 minutes non stop! my word, it was funny!

the play of tantric taboo

Check out the previous post… i have 7 COMMENTS! one of the highest so far. and DEFINITELY THE HIGHEST I HAVE FOR THIS YEAR…. COMMON BREAK RECORD PLS. thank you to all the lovely people who have been regularly visting my blog!

okay… today, went out with terence and xue for dinner. was supposed 2 catch a movie but everything was sold out .. i rushed from carrie’s house after playing some mahjong with them. it was really quite fun la. dinner was at 9 lol at spaghedis. sorry guys for being so super late. we ordered like free. salmon pizza, 1 cream sauce pasta, some chicken, salad……. etc anyways, we went late night shopping after that. lol paragon was deserted. and i fell in love with elmo again. LOL. after that, i went to club. met up with friends. it was boring.. why? cos all couple couple… all don dance… i over there -____-

the ONE AND ONLY HIGHLIGHT :

my friend was totally drunk. so before he gets so drunk that he refuses to return me my precious wallet which i deposited into his bag, i told him to go to counter and meet me cos i wanna get my wallet back. so i waited around the corner near the counter… wait there like some gong kia like that… all alone. suddenly someone tap my shoulder and i tot was my fren… i turn around look at the face and realised its not..was a stranger!

he asked me the weirdest of questions so the convo went something like this
“hi, are u alone or with frens?” i was like… urm.. are u drunk… haha but i just gave a super fake smile and said with frens… waiting for them now… then he ask ” so, are u going home soon?”fabian thinks… oh crap… i noe where this is going… Fabian is getting hit on by a guy! so i quickly reacted.. I say yah going home VERY SOON. soon so means can ZHAO no need talk 2 him right? WRONG!

he said, “COOL! ure going home soon, me too! let’s go home together?”

i was stunned! as in really stunned. so I “HUH?!” out loud.

then he repeat” u wanna go home with me? let’s go home now…”

after realising that the guy was trying to hit on me… i was kinda freaked so i said, actualli im here with my friends… they are coming to get me soon. then he started asking me if my frens were my boyfrens… WTF…anyways, he asked me if i felt offended and all. he said it was the 21st century, shd b more open.. DIAO… anyways i shuai bian say he quite brave… Then u noe what he say, “i wouldn’t want an opportunity like this slip away..” after hearin that i got cold sweat le…. Thank god my frens zoom pass me at that moment, and i ran after them. LOL .

faker(s)

hmm… all seems quiet tonight! not. haha the weather is hot. no wind. i think it’s a sign of eminent rain. oh wells, everyone seems quiet. are they slacking?!

i think not… all are secretly preparing for grad. nite. fakers. haha fockers. 

haha i saw this bottle in a coffee shop somewhere near my econs tuition place. i was searching for the soap when i saw this. i laughed my Ba**s off! no lah. still intact. MUAhaha.

lookie this

it’s fried yam. u noe the dim sum dish. heh. my bro earn money then he treat us to dim sum at the cathay!! so cool kewl rite? yah so to those underage party goers, if u read this blog, lemme noe if u wanna get tix

haha alrite… i confess i have been shopping. seen so many ppl arnd. cj PEOPLE aka fakers. see! this is the place which im garnering more people to boycott. added terence to the HATE VIVO

 

 list already. oh yah RIVER ISLAND IS DISPICABLE. one of their RA -retail assistant was so rude, he reminded me of donkeys fronicating in vivo …speaking of blacklists….here’s a picture that is sure to resonate with vernon.

hahaha.

ZARA rocks my socks, shoes and underwear!! to that PERSON. hahah =D

i wanna take this opportunity to thank my mummy, auntie doreen and terence for shopping with me! and yah the zara person at taka! wahaha!